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Now i know that this whining is likely insufferable and i do apologize in advance. I will get my complaints about not having enough silver platters then i will shut up.
In short, attempts at the job hunt suck. I was expecting to get the call yesterday morning. I called today and expected them to have the decency to call me back. Nope, instead i get silence. I have gotten silence and interviews when i have been out competed. My attempts at working at anywhere not inspiring me to stab myself have come to naught. My only limiter are 3 nights of the week and you would think that would be fine. No, no freeking way that they would lower their standards to a measly university student with security clearance and bilingualism in addition to a wide variety of experience and good references. I am clearly not good enough for minimum wage coffee shop jobs.
Then again, there is an upside to this. At least without employ i get to enjoy the luxury of only taking 6 months of physics condensed into a 3 month span. I can obviously get all that necessary sleep, except for the waking by 7am every day to be available for the temp agency/possible employers.
And even with all of that, i am proven to be lucky time after time. My folks have donated 40 bucks to me to help cover off the seminar, with my mom going out of her way to help ensure i am fed and prepared for the thing. They have done their level best to ensure i enjoy the seminar, even to the point that it costs them money and effort. Yet even with that i feel like crap, then realize that i am an incredibly lucky bastard whom should be satisfied with this good fortune and good will. And of course, due to my feeling bad i believe myself ungrateful and the positive feedback loop occurs.
Oh well, there are chances that i will enjoy the seminar. It should be something different at least.
In short, attempts at the job hunt suck. I was expecting to get the call yesterday morning. I called today and expected them to have the decency to call me back. Nope, instead i get silence. I have gotten silence and interviews when i have been out competed. My attempts at working at anywhere not inspiring me to stab myself have come to naught. My only limiter are 3 nights of the week and you would think that would be fine. No, no freeking way that they would lower their standards to a measly university student with security clearance and bilingualism in addition to a wide variety of experience and good references. I am clearly not good enough for minimum wage coffee shop jobs.
Then again, there is an upside to this. At least without employ i get to enjoy the luxury of only taking 6 months of physics condensed into a 3 month span. I can obviously get all that necessary sleep, except for the waking by 7am every day to be available for the temp agency/possible employers.
And even with all of that, i am proven to be lucky time after time. My folks have donated 40 bucks to me to help cover off the seminar, with my mom going out of her way to help ensure i am fed and prepared for the thing. They have done their level best to ensure i enjoy the seminar, even to the point that it costs them money and effort. Yet even with that i feel like crap, then realize that i am an incredibly lucky bastard whom should be satisfied with this good fortune and good will. And of course, due to my feeling bad i believe myself ungrateful and the positive feedback loop occurs.
Oh well, there are chances that i will enjoy the seminar. It should be something different at least.
