jagash

One of my own personal annoyances is in fact my memory. Not because of a tendency to forget (which does exist) but more about my habit of remembering my own mistakes. I recall my own deeds of stupidity, humiliating blunders and poor decisions far too well. If my memory of my own actions was perfectly representative of the true situation, I would by an outcast at this point. I know consciously that I am likely about average in terms of mistakes made, but remembering my own failings doesn't help matters. Especially considering my current attempts of ending the self-flagellation which I have been doing on and off for the last ten years of my life.

And here is the pain in the ass. I am beating myself up for the stupidity of beating myself up in the past. Feh. I will have chocolate. Chocolate good and far safer then booze. It is also closer which is an added perk.