Reflection of my current affairs.
Apr. 19th, 2008 09:59 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jagashI am.. ok at the moment. Had a excellent coffee/movie with Frances, unfortunately resulting in a missed party (sorry once again ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sharpblonde). Got plenty of exercise in the surprisingly pleasant weather. Overall decent all things considered on the superficial level.
On a deeper level of reflection, I am uncertain. I had seen light at the end of the tunnel, a couple permanent jobs which could have told me when and where I was leaving home. Those came to naught, meaning that I am back to a job hunt and somewhat of a holding pattern in my life. A listless, tired and unproductive holding pattern at that. I also realize that I need to focus on accepting myself before I can hope for others to accept me in any serious manner. My thanks totorrain in particular for the company, it has helped me a great deal.
*shakes head* Que sera sera. I need to just stop worrying about the future and just deal with the present. What has been lost is gone. What will arrive is not yet here.
sharpblonde). Got plenty of exercise in the surprisingly pleasant weather. Overall decent all things considered on the superficial level.On a deeper level of reflection, I am uncertain. I had seen light at the end of the tunnel, a couple permanent jobs which could have told me when and where I was leaving home. Those came to naught, meaning that I am back to a job hunt and somewhat of a holding pattern in my life. A listless, tired and unproductive holding pattern at that. I also realize that I need to focus on accepting myself before I can hope for others to accept me in any serious manner. My thanks to
torrain in particular for the company, it has helped me a great deal. *shakes head* Que sera sera. I need to just stop worrying about the future and just deal with the present. What has been lost is gone. What will arrive is not yet here.
